worrying

Sad news. You know the missing teacher I talked about two or three posts ago? She was found dead by a creekbed. It's a suspected suicide.
Its strange. Last year she was so...on top of it. She was so blunt and lively that you never would have known. But I guess you never really know what people are going through from looking on the outside.
My heart goes out to her friends and family. I can't even imagine what it must feel like for her family.
Its such a shock. I mean, we all knew something was wrong when she never came back. But part of me wanted to keep believing that she had run off to some extraordinary far away place and that we'd only find her when she wanted us to. Hearing it on the news makes it so definite, leaving no room for hope or imagination.

So anyway, this is an awkward transition.
I feel stupid worrying about my grades when something so serious and extreme happened but I can't help it. Besides, I can't think about that anymore. Its makes me too sad.
My parents have been asking me about my grades and why a report card hasn't showed up. My answer was that one was coming in a few weeks. They're talking about going to the school and asking them so I've got to act quick. Sometime this week I'll have to go to school and print out my grades - find someway to hide the D or make it disappear. I'll probably use our copy machine and paste a B or something on top of it.
Its childish, I know. But they can't find out. I'd be dead. They are the stereotypical asian parents who wont take anything lower than a B.

School tomorrow will be weird. I wonder what the teachers will say. I'm not looking forward to it. XOXO

rbamle

Goodness, its been a couple days.
Its Friday so I got back from do stuff with friends a few hours ago. We went to another local shopping area and got mexican food. It was good.
Afterwards my friend had to pick up her sister and drive her to her friends house so we tagged along because sitting in the car is actually a lot of fun. I'm not being sarcastic, it actually is. We sing along to the radio and laugh and play hangmen on the windows if its foggy. Sounds lame because.. you know, songs and hangmen? Yeah, but once you get to a certain point of boredness and tiredness you find everything funny and amusing.

So, rewind. Tuesday was a normal day, school and all that jazz. On Wednesday, my school held a real DUI trial in or performance theater. I guess the person's sentence is lowered because of her willing to let students watch her trial. Anway, Trials are longgggg. It was four hours. It was interesting at first because it had just started and you didn't know what exactly to expect but after the first hour and a half, I found my self struggling to stay awake. Some people actually did. It wasn't all that drama and evidence and action stuff you see on Tv. It was just question after question after question. Like, the police officer was on the stand and the court person guy asked him questions. This is how it went.
Court guy: So I understand that you pulled over Ms.Clearwater (not her actual name)?
Officer: Yes sir.
C: So what brought her to your attention.
O: Well, I noticed she was swerving in her lane.
C: Swerving? How much swerving was there?
O: She swerved in her own lane sir.
C: So, she did not enter any other lanes?
O: No sir.
C: Is there anything else that you noticed?
O: No sir.
C: What did you do when you pulled her over?
O: I asked for her license and her insurance information.
C: Then what?
O: Then I asked her if she had been drinking.
C: What did she say?
O: She said no, but then said something along the lines of, "well...maybe."
C: Did you notice anything about her?
O: I noticed that her eyes were watery and blood shot.
C: Anything else?
O: No sir.
C: So then what did you do?
O:...
It may not seem too bad, but the questions went on and on and on for four hours. Thats a long time.

So on Thursday, I had a field trip for my AP Environmental Science class. We went to the science museum and it was actually really cool. I won't go into detail because I don't want to bore you, but it was really cool.

This was an easy week. Only 3 days of actual school. :)
Untill next time, XOXO.

new layout

I think I like it.
And I loveee the fact that blogger added more font options. So, What do you think? Yay or Nay?

rmable

First post with scrambled letters...
So, Today is Friday. I got back from hanging out with my friends a couple hours ago. Not too exciting. We just went to the mall. Its getting really boring because we have absolutely nothing to do and nowhere to go. If you've read my first ever post I talk about the lack of places here in Marnim. I'll link it here unless you want to read it. Anyways, our weekly Friday hangouts are getting pretty boring. For any of you who are wondering why we hangout if its not that fun, its because its been... a sort of tradition. Every Friday since the end of freshman year, we've gone out and eaten in places around the neighborhood, walked around, sat in drugstores staring at the nail polishes and mascara - a typical Friday for us. Well, as you can imagine, going to the same 5 or 6 places every Friday for two years can get a bit bland.
After everyone else went home, my friend and I sat in my room and watched Wipeout. I'd expain it but I don't know what I'd say other than people trying to make it across these "challenges" and failing and falling into the water below then. It may sound stupid, but its pretty darn funny.

On a heavier note, one of the teachers at my school has gone missing. Like actually missing. Its scary. No one knows where she went. Shes been gone for 3 days. She left her keys, cars, wallet....and just left. I can't imagine where she could have gone without her car. I mean, shes kinda crazy, but she wouldn't just jet off somewhere without telling her family or notifying the school would she? I don't know, but I'm worried. She was my english teacher last year, so I kind of know her. Well, even if she wasn't my teacher I'd still be pretty worried. I hope nothing bad happened. The school's making an announcement about it on Monday if shes not back. I'll keep you guys posted.

xoxo

a quickie

I'm taking a break from homework and of course, procrastinating. Its my thing. One of the things I excel at. Procrastinating.
SO. I've been driving alot. Like an hourish everyday. Today I drove to the CVS with my sister to get some dog toys. While there we saw that the Sally Hansen lipglosses were on sale. Almost as exciting as if the Nivea chapsticks going on sale. Almost. Speaking of which,  I want to try those awkward looking EOS chapsticks...or chapballs. You know, those circular things with a ball of lip balm in the middle? Those. But I can't. Is it weird that I'd feel like I'm cheating on my Nivea chapsticks? Probably.
So I took my math test today. Thoughts? I have no idea. I skipped two. But other than that I have no idea how I did. Usually after taking a test you kinda have an idea of what you got or how well you did, but after that test I was just drained and I just don't know. Hopefully I didn't do too badly.

I just finished my APES review questions. Took a break from taking a break.

Well, I finished my homework so I'm gonna brush my teeth and go to bed. Toodles.

( This was such a pointless post. Homework and chapstick? I really gotta do something to improve these...)

ramble

So I'm thinking for the next 720 rambley type blog posts, I'll just scramble the letters in the word "ramble" and have have that as my title from now on. That'll be hard to keep track of though. Well, we'll see how that goes.

Anyways, (I say anyways wayyy to much. But I can't just suddenly start of with something without a little "anyways", or "so", can I?) I was in a really bad mood today just because I wasn't fully awake and everyone was just being annoying. Not really. But when your not in the mood to act cheery and bubbly and everyone else is, then they seem annoying. But that all changed in third period.
SO. Guess what!!!?!??! I have an A in math! Whoohooo! I aced the quiz today so it brought my grade up from a B to an A. I'm totally on top of this stuff this semester. And guess how I figured out how many titles using the letters in the word "ramble" I can have? Yes, you guessed it. MATH. I feel so accomplished :)

In other news, I got my braces tightened yesterday. They put a bracket on that one weird tooth that is above the gumline and the rest of the other teeth and are now in the process of pulling it down. It hurts. Sooo much. But I'm glad its on the side of my mouth and my lips cover it so I don't look like a freak.

I painted my nails 10ish minutes ago. Its in taupe, which is this light purpley muddy color. Its a pretty ugly color, but ugly in a likeable way.

Well, its homework time.  I'm about to experience oodles and oodles of fun.  XOXO.

cute people

Ahh, Its filler blog season.Until my life suddenly becomes exciting overnight, or I come up with new things to ramble about, there will indeed be alot of filler blogs. Be ready.
I now bring to you a list of cute male celebrities.

1. Lucas Till -- I tried finding a picture of him without the Hannah Montana thing behind him, but all the other one just weren't as cute as this. And beside, I'm sure you all have figured out I'm still a crazy preteen girl on the inside. Anyway. Look at him. He is just one of the hottest, cutest, prettiest people out there. Without a doubt, number one.

2. Austin Butler-- Look! Its Jones! He is from one of my favorite shows, Life Unexpected (which came to an end tonight - maybe a little ramble/review will be coming up). This guy is mad cute, I mean, come on.

3. Chase Crawford -- He's just beautiful. And I love gossip girl.

party

I attended the awkwardest party yesterday. Its was a friend's sixteenth birthday and she had a dance party at a night club. Sounds pretty normal right?
Well it is. Just not with all the socially awkward people invited. There was just a bunch of "I think I"m so cool because I'm dancing and sweating like crazy" people or the "I hate parties but I came because I like to sulk in corners" people, with just a few normals out there. The dance crowd consisted of a mere 7 people and we all know that its just too...awkward to really dance when there are only a few people on the dance floor. Plus, they were the crazy sweaty dancers - eww.
It was just a really awkward experience. The only thing that made it semi-fun was the match-making my friend and I did.We got the birthday girl and and a guy who totally likes her dancing together. They were so embarrassed and shy. It was adorable.
I've got another birthday party to go to today, but its just a dinner. Wow, January must be a popular month. Hm.. Its for a close friend of mine and the only people she invited was her close friends - which are my close friends, so I'm sure it'll be fun.
Its a three day weekend (which explains why I'm blogging at 1:00pm on a Monday) but I haven't started my homework. So much for that new years resolution. Better get started on that now..
Oh and I went on the freeway today! Exciting, I know. I'm still not used to driving, but I'm getting there!
XOXO

blogger's block.

Can't think of anything to write. Boo.

“ Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, it’s not about dwelling on the past. It’s not about loss or defeat. It’s learning, experiencing, and growing. Letting go is to be thankful of the moments that made you laugh, made you cry, made you grow. It’s about all that you have and all that you had. It’s the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. It’s growing up. ”

untitled

Are titles really necessary?  Actually, I don't even have to have one if I don't want to, but I'd like to complain a bit. No, I like titles. They look nice. But, the problem is that whenever I do these ramdom rambly sort of posts i never know what to title them and having no titles just doesnt seem right. I need a list to pull ramdom titles from or something...
Anyway, I got a B on my first math quiz of the semester! Yay! For those of you who have no idea why I'm happy about some lame B, its because I have been failing like every single test/quiz since the school year started. Math is just not my thing. But I'm so happy I didn't fail. Yay! :)
In the past week or so I've been losing some of my very few followers. I'm a bit bummed about it, but whatever. This blog is for me. For me to ramble, and complain, and just.. have some sort of creative outlet. I love blogging. Its fun to just sit here and type whatever I'm feeling. Granted, I don't have very personal posts, but then again my life isn't very exciting. I'm sure I've said this many times before but my life consists of school, grades, and friends. Nothing fascinating. I'm hoping that'll change once I go to college and leave this boring town. But, I will be staying two extra years because I'm going to have to go to a JC now that my grades have slipped last semester. (Again- I hate math.) But it'll give me time to develop my math skills and save up money for real college.
I ordered some books online and I got them today. Being the nerd that I am, I'm super excited. I'm reading a "Chick Lit" novel called When in Rome by someone who I don't know because I'm too lazy to get up out of my chair. But if you want to know (which you won't) ask me in the comments. I got about 8 books or so and have added them to my book shelf. I'm considering rearranging them to go in alphabetical order by author or if I should just keep then in order by title...Hmm.
I'm going to start my homework now, not too much procrastinating tonight. XOXO.

day two, three, four and five

day 02 — your favorite movie
day 03 — your favorite television program
day 04 — your favorite book
day 05 — your favorite quote

I'm combining these into one post because the answers are just too simple and short to make one post about each individual day. SO...
Day two: The Notebook
Day three : One Tree Hill
Day four: Flipped
Day five: “ Do you ever just get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile & you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone, people have stopped being comforting, & being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what’s wrong & there isn’t anyone who won’t take 'I don’t know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon & that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait. ”

This was easy. XOXO.

“ One morning you’ll wake up and you’ll think, ‘how did I get here?’ you’ll inhale a long drag of smoke through your lungs, and before you can exhale, pictures from your life pop into your head. Behind each picture lies a story. The first picture you see will make you smile. The image will remind you of a time when you were happy. Actually happy. the kind of happy that makes you jumble your words, the kind of happy that makes your insides twist, the kind of happy that makes you use the word ‘forever.’ the next image that pops up shows you your lowest low. the kind of low that told you to slit your wrists, the kind of low that makes you pull your hair and scream, the kind of low that never wants to know how long forever is. Then you’ll look around you and you won’t know whether to laugh or to cry. And you’ll think ‘I’ve loved and I’ve hated.’ and you’ll realize that you wouldn’t have to hate if you never knew love. ”

day one

Just one? Ahhh...
Ummm...Right now, I'm liking Catch Me, by Demi Lovato.  I know you guys will judge me because its by a Disney/Nickolodian person but its such a cute song <3 I haven't listened to it in months and have been playing it on repeat.

I don't really have one absolute favorite song..

30 day challange

day 01 — your favorite song
day 02 — your favorite movie
day 03 — your favorite television program
day 04 — your favorite book
day 05 — your favorite quote
day 06 — whatever tickles your fancy
day 07 — a photo that makes you happy
day 08 — a photo that makes you angry/sad
day 09 — a photo you took
day 10 — a photo of you taken over ten years ago
day 11 — a photo of you taken recently
day 12 — whatever tickles your fancy
day 13 — a fictional book
day 14 — a non-fictional book
day 15 — a fanfic
day 16 — a song that makes you cry (or nearly)
day 17 — an art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
day 18 — whatever tickles your fancy
day 19 — a talent of yours
day 20 — a hobby of yours
day 21 — a recipe
day 22 — a website
day 23 — a youtube video
day 24 — whatever tickles your fancy
day 25 — your day, in great detail
day 26 — your week, in great detail
day 27 — this month, in great detail
day 28 — this year, in great detail
day 29 — hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
day 30 — whatever tickles your fancy

pointless ramble

I'm running out of things to say. Nothings new, nothing is interesting. Ugh, my life is so boring.
But let's see if I can come up with something..
- My hair is currently in two messy buns in a hat. When I wake up in the morning and let my hair out it'll be nice and wavy. 
- For the first time in like ever, I actually understand and know how to do something in my math class. And it feels great.
- I left my candle lit all night. I forgot about it. But in the morning the flame was still running and half the candle was burnt. Its one of the jar ones so I could see it through the glass. I'm glad I didn't light the house on fire.
- So, I've already broken one of my new year resolutions. I'm procrastinating. Big surprise, huh? But hey, I don't have much to do, so that kinda makes it acceptable. Kinda.
- I downloaded Itunes yesterday and I now have music on my ipod again. Yay.
- I'm currently reading Nicolas Spark's Message in a Bottle, and I just find it so boring. Maybe its because I only read like 5 pages at a time, but its just so dull that I can't possibly keep reading for any longer. I love all his books but this one..not so much. It must be one of his good ones because its been made into a movie and they wouldn't make a movie out it if it was bad. I'm not too far into it, so I'm hoping I'll get better. Nicolas Sparks has never disappointed me before, I hope it gets good soon!
- Well I guess I should go start on my homework now. But I'll probably get side tracked but getting off the computer is a good start.
- Looks like I had a bit more to say than I thought. Nothing of importance, but I think it might be mildly amusing. But then again, I'm the one writing it...

lazy day :)

I am currently just sitting in my room typing this blog. My vanilla cupcake is burning on my night stand and Colbie Caillat is playing.
I love days like this. Nothing to do, just doing...nothing. Theres something so great about not having any thing to do and being able to do whatever you want.  Its the last day of this. I go back to school tomorrow and I'm dreading it.

Last night I had "sad movie night" with my friends. We watched My Sisters's Keeper, A Walk to Remember, and Titanic. It was nice to have a little cry. We sat in the dark eating candy, chips, and popcorn and cried. A little goodbye to this winter break? Maybe. Ha.

I'm out of things to say. XOXO
-- Listening to: Tailor Made - Colbie Caillat

first day of 2011

It's officially a new year!
I don't actually have anything to say, but I wanted to do a quick post to wish you all a happy new year! (LIE - I am excited to see the new tab "2011" on the right side of the page and had to post something in order for the new tab to appear..)