day 1

Five things I want to say to 5 different people:

1) I'm so glad I have you as a friend. Part of the best friend relationship is making fun of each other. So, I'd just like to say that I have no idea how a person can love vampires so much, but you do, and... I find it weird. 
2) I never thought things would have been this way. I'm sorry. I take back the things I said. I wanted you out of my life so I let everything loose, all my hurt feelings, every little thing you did wrong. I know I hurt you, I'm sorry. I miss you so much.
3) Why can't you let any of us in? Share a little? C'mon, a little crush, a favorite song, something.. personal? What are you so afraid of? We won't judge you. Promise.
4) Can't you see that no one wants you here? You've used up all your second chances. Go away.
5) Its so weird looking back. Seems like such a long time ago, and granted it was. What happened? We were best friends, the three of us. I still remember that last day of the 6th grade, us sitting on the bench with the sugar cookies we bought with the change found in the bottom of our backpacks. That one of the first bonding experiences we had. All those talks, laughs, and that fall down the stairs. Haha.  We were so young and silly. I miss it.

ten day challange

Day One: Five things you want to say to five different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

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last day of thanksgiving break

HOMEWORK.

another list

- I'm trying to work on my extra credit for math, its a challenge....
- Tomorrow is Turkey Day! Gobble Gobble.
- Listening to Taylor Swifts new album for the hundredth time. I'm getting a tad sick of it. Maybe I'll create a new playlist on youtube after this...
- I just watched the new glee episode. I don't think I could even how how many times I awwwed.
- My feet are cold, I need to put on socks
- Other than my math grade, I'm pretty content with where I am now. I've learned that if you set your expectations low and don't expect too much from people you'll be happier.
- False happiness? I'm not sure.
- I want french fries. Or latkas.
- I love love love potatoes.
- I just put on knee socks. They are grey and blue argle patterned.
- I watched a rerun of Greek today and I will admit that I still think Jesse McCartney is still the hottest thing ever. He is so damn pretty. 
- Painted my toes with the color "extravaganza". Its a  dark red with gold glimmer. I really like it, I've repainted it several times this fall, which is weird because I usually like to change it up. 
- I've been spelling weird wrong lately. I knew how to spell it, but I think I've trained my self to spell it incorrectly. Like "wierd". It looks pretty normal for a misspelled word right? hmm...
- Have a happy turkey day tomorrow everyone! :)

xoxo. gobble gobble.

oh how i love lists

- Today was the last day of school this week. Soo sooo happy.
- I have a TON of extra credit work for Algebra. Totally ready to get my grade up.
- I want soup.
- Its cold and rainy today. Not too fond of it.
- I have 3 followers. Thats pretty exciting. I'm going up in the blogging world. Thanks to the 3 who followed me, it means alot. :) Its nice to know that someone is actually reading my posts.
- Awwww, my dog looks sooo  cute! He is sleeping on my bed with his head rested on his toy bear. Precious!
- I have absolutely no idea what I am going to do with this 5 day weekend. Homework, food and tv I assume?
- I have become obsessed with candles.
- I'm weird. I obsess over things too much.
- I say I'm weird too often. But its true.
- What else, What else....Hmmm.
- Nothing

Todaloo. XOXO.

i talk to people in my head

Oh, am I bored of this place. I would love it if everyone except my friends and family were shipped to....Ohio(Why OH? I have no idea. ) and traded with the people there.
I just want something new and fun and exciting.
Most of all, I want a boy.
I want someone who will hold me and kiss me, and just make me feel special.
There is noone in this town who I'd want to be with or would want to be with me.  I want a preppy, nerdy, goody-two shoes kinda guy. Cute, awkward and funny. Oooh, with a british accent that I can make fun of, not in a mean way, In a cute i-love-it kinda way. Haha, no.. He doesn't have to have an accent but that definitely would be an added bonus.
I was walking home the other day behind this really cute boy. After staring at his back for like 7 minutes, I started imagining us talking. I do that alot, pick people and have conversations with them in my head, I know, I'm weird. Anyway, this is how it went.
He turned into the street where I live. We keep walking, and he turns around once or twice, trying to figure out if I'm following him. I'm not. (haha.) He turns around again.
I say , "Don't, worry I'm not following you."
He says, "Oh, Umm, no, I just thought you were wa- okay, Yeah, I thought you were following me."
I say, "No, I don't normally follow people home."
He says, "Glad to hear it."
Now we continue walking and talking and bonding. We reach my house. We stand there.
I say, "Well, this is my stop. It was nice talking to you."
He says, "It was nice talking to you too. Hey, if your walking to school tomorrow, we could, you know, walk together."
I say, "Yeah, I'd really like that."
He says, "Me too."
We stare into each other's eyes. He leans in, I tip-toe, and we kiss.

If only, but when I turned, he continued walking. But, thats life. Sigh.

awwww

Cheesy things like these make me "Aaaaawwww!"

 

Boy : *Phoned girl*
Girl : * Picks up* Yea honey?
Boy : I lost my way, I can't find my way home
Girl : You kidding?
Boy : I'm serious, I asked for directions from passersby, but none of them can lead me home
Girl : What did you asked ?
Boy : Directions to your heart

my room...

..smells yummy.
I got two candles yesterday, one Vanilla Cup Cake scented and the other is Candy-Cane. The Candy-Cane one is currently lit.
Yummy.
My room smells so nice and warm and it makes me feel nice and warm.

And the word fuzzy reminds me of llamas. Random. I'm aware.

XOXO.

random little stuff

- Ok, so I lied, I'm not giving up. I know, and after that dramatic post...But my grade went up to a D-, not much, but improving.
- I saw Harry Potter 7. It was AMAZING.  :))
- Rain, Rain, POURING rain
- I'm making chicken wings because I watched an episode of....I don't remember, Life Unexpected?, and they were having wings so I began to crave them
- I was supposed to go to a birthday party today, but it was cancelled because the club had a fire...bummer
- I organized and cleaned my room, I feel super accomplished
- I'm lighting a candle and my room smells so nice and warm :)
- Next week - TWO DAYS OF SCHOOL. Aaaahhhh! So excited!
- I want to go to Bath&Body Works so baddly....
- I really want a cake scented candle. Or something else thats sweet smelling. This is why I want to go to Bath & Body Works. Plus that store is amazing.
- My dogs are sleeping. Super cute.
- Thats it.

XOXO.

--Listening to : Sparks Fly - who other than Taylor Swift? I may have a problem..

giving up

I just can't do it anymore. I'm giving up.
I can't do it. Another math test back, and another F. Its just F after F after F.  I know it might sound stupid to you, I mean its just a grade right? Yes, its just a grade, but just that fact that I'm failing it is discouraging beyond belief. I'm so used to everything coming easy, I'm a good student.  I get As with the occasional B. I thought that once I just took a little initiative that everything would be alright. But its not. I'm trying, I really am. I've gotten a tutor, gone through everyone of my tests/quizzes, I always do my homework.  But I just feel so stupid. Its like, why can't I understand this? Is it really that hard or am I just too dumb to get it? It just feels like nothing will work out no matter how hard I try. And I'm done.  I can't handle this feeling of failure anymore. I just can't. I can't do it anymore. I'm done.

5 tswift songs

I have no idea how many of these "five ___" things I'm going to do. I"m not sure if they ever will. they are such perfect filler blogs. Its just naming your 5 favorite anything. Anyway. I feel like I say "anyway" to often. Maybe I should try and change that. Any-who. These are my 5 favorite Taylor Swift songs because I have been listening to her non-stop since her album came out. And I definitely could not pick 5 songs out of the 10 bazillion songs out there..

1. Breathe
2. Jump Then Fall
3. Ours
4. Mean
4. If This Was A Movie

perfect imperfections

I saw this tag on Youtube and decided I wanted to do a blog post on it. You name 3 imperfections(things you hate) and 3 perfections (things you like) about your self.

Imperfections:
1. My shortness and smallness. I don't mind it that much. Its just when ever people point it out that it gets to me. And because I'm so small, people alway think I'm wayy younger than and am and treat me like a little kid. Its always like, "No, your not 16! You can't be! Your so small!"
No, actually I am sixteen. And yes, I'm small.  Is it really necessary to point out? Do you people really think I'm not aware of my size? YES. I KNOW. I'm small. Get over it.
2. My nose. Its so small and flat. My glasses always slide down because my nose can't hold it up (not that I wear my glasses very often, I'm a contacts girl, but you get the point).
3. My teeth . I have braces. They suck. They hurt. Enough said.

Perfections:
1. My hair. I love my hair. Its really soft and smooth and naturally straight. It doesn't get messy too often and if it does, all I have to do is brush it. It can't hold a curl though, I wish it did.
2. My body. Other than being small, I like how I look. I am skinny and can eat whatever I want with out gaining a pound.
3. My complexion. I have pretty clear skin.

why must i procrastinate?

Four day weekend. Extra homework assigned. Math homework X2. History. Labs X2. APES. English Essay. Spanish X2.  Guess who decided to wait untill 5:00pm to start her homework?  Someones not going to get very much sleep tonight. Lovely. Just lovely.

I do, but I then again I don’t.
I will, but maybe I just won’t…

who knows..

 

Because I sure dont.

5 shows

This is "three" of the favorite 5 things...These are my favorite TV shows.

1. One Tree Hill
2. Life Unexpected
3. Glee
4. HellCats
5. The Secret Life Of The American Teenager

televison and food

Oh, what an exciting life I live. I have gotten today and friday off of school and I am spending it home, alone, watching last weeks episode of Hellcats that I missed and will watch reruns of Greek after it. What a life right?
No, but I actually dont mind it. Sure, it's not the most exciting thing that I could be doing, but I live for lazy days like this where I can just sit home and watch TV all day. It really is great.
It's one of those days where you sit at home and recharge and re-energize from your busy week.
I'm the kind of person who has to be doing something while I watch TV or a movie. So what I do is eat, eat and eat. When your watching TV, your kind of in a mesmerized state of mind and you don't really think about eating, its just something you do, you know? Like if you leave a bag of chips in front of you, you going to unconsciously reach for another chip even if you don't want them anymore. Food and TV are a bad combination if you trying to lose weight or anything. I guess it'll benefit me because I'm underweight (I'm not anorexic or anything, I'm just naturally skinny with super speedy metabolism).
I'm not saying I would pass up going out with friends to sit at home to watch and eat, but Its definitely not the worst thing in the world.

5 movies

This is kind of a "part two" to the "5 books" post. This is a list of my top five favorite movies..

1. The Notebook
2. The Perfect Man
3. Little Manhatten
4. Raise Your Voice
5. Click

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failure is not an option

Oh my, what a stressful couple of weeks.
Number one reason for that : Algebra 5-6.
Im failing it. With a 50.62%. Its bad. Real bad. Every time I think of it, I shrink a little. Its make me want to curl up, hide under my covers and never get out...
Math has always been my worst subject. Even doing back to the days of elementary school, it has always been a challenge for me. This year, it the worst. My grade in that class is based on my performance on tests and quizzes. They make up 85% of the grade. The only reason I passed Geometry last year is because of my 100% in homework and lots of extra credit. But, that was when tests and quizzes were only worth 45% of the grade. So I'm kind of screwed. I'm getting tutored one day a week, but that hasn't seemed to help too much. I'm trying, I really am. I guess I'm not giving it a 100%, but I feel like its so impossible and trying and not getting it makes me feel even worse. I just want to give up, and drop the class. But I cant.
Its so stupid. Its like my whole entire future depends on that one class. I'm a pretty good student, I get all A's with the occasional B. College is definiety in the plan...Well, If i get in. What college will accept me with an F in my transcript? None. Not any good ones anyway.
Its horrible. Everytime I walk into that class I feel like a rock has been placed on my back. Its so heavy and discouraging.
I know, I'm being dramatic. This probably isn't very fun to read. But its all I've been thing of.
You know what? I'm going to do fine. I will. All this sulking and complaining won't do anything. I just need to work at it. Failure is not an option. I just need to give it 95%. 100 is just impossible, that would be pushing all my other classes and responsiblitys to the side and I need to keep track of them too.
But I can do it. I guess all the added pressure is getting to me. If I fail (which I won't ) its not the end. I can always go to community college and transfer to a better school. I could get into UC Davis. Why settle for UC Merced or some lame college if I could go there?
I can do it, But if I cant? Its not the end. I'll be fine. I'll be fine. Right?

5 books

Yes, another one. If you have read most of my posts, you know that I love making lists. They are simple, easy and from my point of view, mildly entertaining . And considering I am a bit of a book worm, I have many many favorites. But because I didn't want to like 20 books that I like, I decided to just pick five books that I have read that entered my mind when I read them, and have just stuck. And nowwwww, I now present to you five amazing books:

1. Alice series by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor
2. Flipped by Wendelin Van Draanen
3. Click Here by Denise Vega
4. Dear John by Nicolas Sparks
5. Swear to Howdy by Wendelin Van Draanen

-- Listening to : Ours by T.Swift